So Far Gone...

Not going to lie, I've been in the relationships state of mind lately. When I'm analyzing the dynamics of modern day relationships with friends, it really amazes me how far my mentality has changed from the days as a college freshman.

Yeah, I'm feeling like I'm So Far Gone...

For those that haven't listened to Drake's mixtape "So Far Gone". I highly recommend it. It is a gem. DOWNLOAD IT HERE

As I recall, Drake came up with the name of the mixtape while he was chilling with his friend. They were talking about women. And when he reflected back on what they said, he felt really troubled. He injected a lot of his frustrations into the mixtape. From a psychological perspective, the mixtape gives us a window into the mind of a young man troubled by his relationship with women.

But don't take my word for it. Here's an excerpt from an interview he did with Complex magazine.

Complex: Talk to us about So Far Gone. What was the idea behind it?

Drake: It's basically a story. It starts in January 2008 when I was kinda confused like, What am I really doing? I gave up acting all together to really do this music thing, and I was really truly confused. It's way different than acting, there aren't people to depend on, you really have to build your own thing basically from the ground up, you know, so in January not only was I confused about my career, I was also in a very destructive sort of us exhausting relationship with a female and it was just a bad headspace for me to be in. So that's where the tape starts.

It starts with this monologue, "Lust For Life", of me crying out, in my head the things that I never say. The things that I was just thinking, that was my mindset. Then it goes to "Houstatlantavegas" which is about what I felt about the girl I was with. I just felt that nothing was ever good enough, and she was always searching for more excitement and then we move into "Successful." I say at the end of the song, "There are so many things I want to say but I just don't know how to say it to you." I know exactly what I want to say, you know, I just want to be successful, but I don't know if I can do it with you and then it goes into "Let's Call It Off," which is the breakup. And then coincidentally when I broke up with that girl a week later I went to Houston and met Lil Wayne and that's where "November 18" comes from.

To the single people out there, the take home message is this: Work hard and reap the rewards. Find someone you can be successful with.


You're welcome.

First MRI in Canada. YAY!

So my TMJ joint is finally getting checked out by MRI.

Little background info: I got elbowed during pickup basketball on a hot humid afternoon in Shanghai. It happened in the summer of 2009...the summer after my freshman year.

Well now I'm really happy that I can finally get an MRI in Canada. All that tax paid by my parents and I are finally getting some usage. At the same time however, I'm quite disappointed that the appointment happens to fall on the exam period. At this point, I feel no need to re-schedule. It's about time I take care of this joint pain.

Hopefully lying on a bed for 30 min as my body gets scanned won't hurt my chances to perform.

On a related note, I'm getting my wisdom teeth examined and taken out. You know your life is BS when you can finally enjoy the privileges of the healthcare system.

alright, back to solving reactor problems.

Peace out